Friday, February 29, 2008

The Man in white

A Muslim man in Egypt killed his wife because she was reading the Bible and then buried her with their infant baby and an 8-year old daughter. The girls were buried alive! He then reported to the police that an uncle killed the kids. 15 days later, another family member died. When they went to bury him, they found the 2 little girls under the sand - ALIVE!

The country is outraged over the incident, and the man will be executed.

The older girl was asked how she had survived and she says "A man wearing shiny white clothes, with bleeding wounds in his hands, came every day to feed us. He woke up my mom so she could nurse my sister," she said. She was interviewed on Egyptian national TV, by a veiled Muslim woman news anchor. She said on public TV, "This was none other than Jesus, because nobody else does things like this!"

Muslims believe Isa (Jesus) would do this, but the wounds mean He really was crucified, and it's clear also that He is alive! But, it's also clear that the child could not make up a story like this, and there is no way these children could have survived without a true miracle. Muslim leaders are going to have a hard time to figure out what to do with this, and the popularity of the Passion movie doesn't help! With Egypt at the centre of the media and education in the Middle East, you can be sure this story will spread.

Christ is still turning the world upside down! Please let this story be shared.

The Lord says, "I will bless the person who puts his trust in me". Jeremiah 17

midlife crisis anyone?

midlife crisis? choi.. choi.. choi..... touch wood...
though i'm half way to 50, i would still like to consider myself young... :p
CG members are pressuring us to get married... don't like that lar... :(
we'll let you guys know when we will get married...

Today, i made bookings for our stay in Kuching for April. I've always admire this owner's concept of lodge. They inspired me even more to own my own lodge. Today, i went to their site again, wow... they have branched out with a new Village concept... so cool.... check out their site.

i wonder when is my turn....

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Stagnant & Stunt

stag·nant
Not moving or flowing; motionless.
Foul or stale from standing: stagnant ponds.
Showing little or no sign of activity or advancement; not developing or progressing; inactive: a stagnant economy.
Lacking vitality or briskness; sluggish or dull: a stagnant mind.

stunt

–verb (used with object)
1.to stop, slow down, or hinder the growth or development of; dwarf: A harsh climate stunted the trees. Brutal treatment in childhood stunted his personality.

–noun
2.a stop or hindrance in growth or development.
3.arrested development.
4.a plant or animal hindered from attaining its proper growth.
5.Plant Pathology. a disease of plants, characterized by a dwarfing or stunting of the plant.

I'm both stagnant & stunted in my work growth

brrrr

BBBrrrrrrr..............



I think i'm going insane with my job....

mix emotion

the first RM2000 has come in.
I guess this is the start for UK planning.
So many things to do, so many things need to be sorted out.

Anxious, happy, worried & sad.

Anxious because i just can't wait to get out of my job and have a new start in a new place. A totally new culture & new experience for me.

Happy because my dream is finally coming true.

Worried because there's too many "What if" questions lingering in my head.

Sad because i'll be leaving all my friends, leaving church duties & CG.

I may not be a good friend to everyone, but they have been very good friends to me. Like what Chin Yin said in her post, there are 2 types of friend & I'm glad I have many of type 2 as well. I'll definately miss the "masak-masak" time and supper time after church.

I'll miss you all girls...

Monday, February 25, 2008

People that I can't stand

1. Girls acting all fragile and weak. being feminine is one thing, but being fragile is another. Being all fragile saying that u can't sit at the back of the van and that you might get headache, all those are crap. nobody likes to sit at the back of the van, cause it's extremely bumpy. There's one thing call "pills" that you can take to get rid of the dizzyness. if we can take it, i'm sure you can "rough it out" and take it too.
2. sitting on a 'tut tut' and saying that it's "roughing out" is an extremely cold joke. If you thinking 'tut tut' is bad, well you can always choose to walk or "roughing it out" on a 'tut tut'.
3. Those that can't stand cold water. Don't give me the statement: "I can't live without hot water or water heater." or "I'll die if the hotel don't have water heater". If you can die so easily, there's no need for suicide bombers. They could just pour cold water on you and you die immediately.

Lesson learnt

I went to Hatyai over the weekend...
everyone asked... how's my trip? hmm... generally it's ok, nothing to shout about. In fact, it was quite chaotic and boring at the same time.

Lesson learnt from this trip:
1. make sure your phone is fully charged or bring spare batt if going to a 2 days 1 night trip.
2. Make sure you have more than enough credit in your phone.
3. Bring extra cash.
4. If driving, make sure you got spare tyre.
5. travel with the right people. (but sometimes you just can't help but to travel with the wrong bunch.)
6. If travel in 1 big group, always have a plan ready. No such thing as free & easy for 2 days and 1 night.
7. Once booking for transport & room is done, it's best to double check again 1 or 2 days before leaving.
8. Do research before leaving on places of interest and good food.
9. Be spontaneous & sporting.
10. Be flexible.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Detox plan aborted

If you notice, i haven't mention anything about Day 4 & Day 5 of my detox plan...
That's because....
I screw it... wahahhahahaha....
It takes alot of determination to go on a bloody diet...
But I'm quite proud of myself being able to survive 3 days of fruits and vege with 2 days of gym & hiking... =D
I think i should join "Survivors".... Do they still have this program on?

Questions to ponder

1. why they never built police station next to a bank?
2. why can't we have more bank street, where all the banks are located in the same area?
3. Why do evil people always want to take over the world? They can't bring the world to their grave when they die..
4. Does Godzilla really exist?
5. Does animal understand when we talk to them?
6. Does human has supernatural power? like superman, batman, etc
7. Why aliens are always ugly?
8. Aliens smarter or human?

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Happy Chap Goh Mei!

Happy Chap Goh Mei everyone!! :)

one thing about working in international company is that they don't bloody recognise any bloody local culture at all....

I forgot today is Chap Goh Mei. It's only until my cousin send me a msg wishing me that. In fact, i forgot what's it like to have a proper public holiday. For most public holiday, i work. People go hiking, i work. People go camp, i work. people plan this, plan that for public holiday, i can only politely decline and say i work.

Can i not go to work during those public holiday? Can... but my performance will suffer. I'll lack on my result which will cause me not to hit my target and subsequently, masuk action plan.

Today is the final day for me to hit 90% for my result. i'm only at 80% perhaps... haha... what a joke. why i suffer so much? because I didn't go to work during CNY. That's also another freaking joke. I can foresee that i'll be in action plan 2 next month... haha... wat a bloody joke.

Boss say that next month they will introduce another metric to measure our result, those that didn't hit that metric will also put into action plan... haha... freaks...
might as well put everyone in action plan since they like it so much... bloody management...

damn... the more i talk about my job, the more frustrated i am, my blood boils even more... better stop it now before this entry become a pageful of curses...

*very emo... must be PMS again...

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

I thought i have a headache

at first i thought i have a headache... mana tau... it's earthquake that happen in Sumatra...
any evacuation done in your company?

Mine? like nothing happen... business as usual.... boss don't love us enough...

He ask: if builing collapse how?
Me say: die lar..

Day 3

this is my 3rd day of Detox... i wanna die de...
KFC is playing in my mind, cow is running around too, ice-cream and chocolate is swimming in it..

How did vegetarian survive without eating meat?

Oh gosh.. walking also one kind de... cham...

He's not helping either... yesterday, we agreed to go hiking. He said he'll go and fetch me.
The moment i open the door, there he is, tearing off the fried chicken... my god... it smells sooo good... so tempted to give in de... how could he??? :(
What kind of BF is this??!!?

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

day 2 of detox

Yesterday was a tough day...

damn... of all the days... they choose to cook good food on my first day of diet..

bummer...

i "kantoi" my diet by popping 2 sinful chocs into my mouth...

wah... pure bliss..

He's suppose to be on the same plan too... but unfortunately... tiger, being a tiger, he can't resist meat... tsk tsk... i should have know earlier....

as i told everyone, asking him to go on diet is like asking a tiger to become vegetarian... kua..kua..kua..

For me, i'll continue my detox plan with more detox tea & more fruits & vege....
meehh...

Monday, February 18, 2008

Detox plan

Today is my first day of my Detox program..
The purpose of this detox program basically is to spring clean myself after all the junk food i've been feeding myself on since CNY... :s
I started my day with only 2 oranges and 1 cup of detox tea.
My lunch later will be 4 small size bananas.
Dinner should be celery & carrots.
My weight this morning is 56kg (according to my home scale lar... usually in the gym will be another 3kg more... which one is more accurate... i also don't know...but i prefer to see smaller numbers.. :p)
let's see how much i can lose in these 5 days...
please don't tempt me with chocolates, KFC, McDonalds & Ice Cream, else don't blame me if i become violence! :s

Friday, February 15, 2008

changed

During my trip home to Kuching, i managed to meet with one of my church friend.
He changed so much that i hardly know him. It's not good to judge, it's true, but when I met him, I couldn't help and wonder what made him changed so much?

He used to be a faithful servant in the church, in charge of AV & sound systems. He's much of a quiet person that hardly talks much. He used to call me & another friend of ours Datin as we used to follow his car to go to church & CG. Those happen 3 years ago.

during our meeting, he told me that he haven't been going to church since 1 and 1/2 year ago. Due to some conflicts with our pastor, he decided to quit church. He also didn't search ard for other churches.

He said that he'll like to take it easy and not to depend on God too much. I was shocked but i kept quiet.
He said that he would like to focus on his career on video production which is expanding now.
He also said that he would like to see what other religion has to offer. Again, I was shocked.
He told me that he recently found some friends that shares with him a story about a person that experience near death situation. That person wrote a book about it and his friends seems to be worshipping the person that wrote that book. The author seems to be a Christian as he can quote bible verses but he also manipulate the meaning of those verses.

At that moment, i was thinking if the end time is coming?
Disasters every where, war never seems to end, even now, false preaching is coming up too...

I pray that my friend will come back to the light again...

14th February

14th Feb or Valentine's day is seriously over-commercialised!



Florist, chocolates seller, teddy bear maker, valentine's card maker & restaurants owner are laughing their ways to bank when this day come. This is the only day that they can double charge their flowers and some idiots will still buy anyway.
Last time, i used to like the idea of receiving flowers or chocolates or teddy bear and dine in fancy restuarant to celebrate Valentine. Come to think of it, it's nice if it's done once in a blue moon... if every year also the same... hmmm... too routine... it'll end up being boring too..

I mean, there's soo many occasions to celebrate, there's anniversary on the day you both meet, anniversary on the day you both are together, your birthday, his birthday, valentines, Chinese's Valentines, christmas eve, christmas, new year... the list goes on...
If every occasion also fancy restaurant... soon you'll treat it like hawker stall de...

So... how did i celebrate my Valentines? No gifts, no flowers, no teddies, no fancy restaurant.
*Actually he did prepare a gift for me... it's a cute pink bath robe.. hehehe ;p

On the 14th Feb 2008,
Both fall sick. I got flu, he sprained his neck.
I bought lunch for him (economy rice... wahahhahaa)
we surfed the net together to search for info about UK.
We made our decision to go UK in July.
we went to grocery shopping in Tesco.
we have dinner in Island Glade, "zhu cha" style and he ordered his fav, steam fish and i ordered my fav, prawns!

Sweet Valentines! :)

Plans

I'm finally back to work.
Suddenly so many changes. My boss confirmed leaving in the month of April,
another colleague leaving mid of March. One just asked to be transferred to another team.
I was just away for 1 week ler... not 1 year...


Me & him decided to put full effort on UK now. Planning to leave in July. Hope all goes well.
Airfare: RM1770 one way per person
Visa: RM1400 per person
duration: 2 years (hopefully, by then can secure a proper work permit)
Accomodation: His aunt's place for starting
Job: anything we can get hold of (should have study nursing in the first place as it's in great demand... but too bad, i'm scared of blood... >_<)
$$ needed: RM10,000 or more in the a/c for visa purposes

$$$$$...... $$ always not enough... :(

Sunday, February 10, 2008

arrangement

I always wonder why I choose to work in Penang. Half of the reason is because of him, no doubt about it, the other half, i told everyone that I wanted a better career advancement. But when i think back now and see, I think God has a better reason why I'm in Penang.

Most of my family are non-believers. Even those that are, seems to slack. Not that i'm any perfect than them, but i think being away from them has made me growing up in my spiritual life easier.

Thank you Lord for your arrangement. It's not easy, but can You help me to reach out to them?

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

stolen II

how to stay positive despite hard time?

stolen

slowly and surely, my sales are taken away by other people.

Manager not doing anything.

Senior manager not helping too.

what can I do? Just feeling heartache as 5 of my sales taken away... just like that...

Frustrated, sad, angry are just words that i can type.

Real feelings? it's beyond words...

What else can i do, if those managers are not fighting for my orders?

What else can i do?

Monday, February 4, 2008

love is sacrifice?

Msn conversation about love:

He[5:59 AM]: Corinthian 13:4-7, Love is Patient, Love is Kind...
He[6:00 AM]: Do you think Female love and Male love may differ to certain degrees?
Jenn[6:01 AM]: yes, female & male function differently
Jenn[6:01 AM]: we also think differently

He[6:01 AM]: hmm you think so too uh
He[6:01 AM]: I think what it's missing is Sacrifice

Jenn[6:02 AM]: hmm...not really...when u really love someone..you are ready to sacrifice...without hoping much return from the other person
He[6:02 AM]: so isn't that love is sacrifice then?
Jenn[6:03 AM]: hmm..
Jenn[6:05 AM]: i think it all goes back to the willingness...

He[6:05 AM]: perhaps i give you an example instead
Jenn[6:05 AM]: ok
He[6:06 AM]: wife submitting to husband...true?
Jenn[6:06 AM]: yes
He[6:06 AM]: husband should love the wife as much as God loves the churches (in which refers to all the Chrisitians)... true?
Jenn[6:06 AM]: yes
He[6:07 AM]: so, Man should sacrifice for his wife just the way God sacrifice for us...true?
Jenn[6:07 AM]: ok..
Jenn[6:07 AM]: i think i got your point
Jenn[6:08 AM]: looks like you've been doing research lately...
Jenn[6:14 AM]: hmm... i think i do have to agree with you..
Jenn[6:14 AM]: about love being sacrifice..
Jenn[6:15 AM]: sacrifice in the things we do, time, $$, material stuff
He[6:38 AM]: Corinthians 13:4-7 talkes about Love is kind and Love is patient...
He[6:39 AM]: no doubts on that and to certain extent, I believe love from female may differ from the man to certain extent as you would agreed with me in the first place.
He[6:45 AM]: both men and women may carry the "general" love charistics like patience, kindness, trust, etc...but when it comes to sacrificing... no doubts women do sacrifice too in many different ways but Men from what I see, tend to sacrifice more to extent of sacrificing themselves for the love and happiness of their belove one...
Jenn[6:46 AM]: ok... example? why do you say that men sacrifice more?
He[6:47 AM]: you see..
He[6:49 AM]: wife submitting only to husband wherease husband must love their wife as much as God loves his churches...so...to extent men must sacrifice his life for his wife
He[6:49 AM]: i'm not trying to compare who's sacrification is more...
He[6:50 AM]: i'm trying to see how far men usually sacrifice for their love ones as compared to love being kind, patience bla bla bla but they are more towards sacrificing rather than those bla bla bla thing..that's who men shows their love more in away
Jenn[6:54 AM]: hahaha...
Jenn[6:54 AM]: ok...
Jenn[6:55 AM]: remember that God created Adam first, then only Eve from Adam's rib..
Jenn[6:55 AM]: God has always intended for Men to lead...screw those that says men & women are equal, because they simply are not
Jenn[6:56 AM]: in certain way, it's true that men seems to sacrifice more
Jenn[6:56 AM]: but women sacrifice in different way, for eg, woman give birth to man's child, which man can't do it at all. woman bear the pain for 9 months, which man won't be able to experience and understand
Jenn[6:57 AM]: it is also stated in the Bible that... in Genesis
Jenn[6:58 AM]: because of adam's sin, man have to work hard to feed the family and eve's punishment is to bear the pain of child birth
Jenn[6:58 AM]: though right now, in the modern society, man & woman are both working and financially independant
Jenn[7:00 AM]: things do changed and not many will agree to the things teached in the Bible... that's where trouble comes in the relationship, when wife are not willing to submit, they get into fight
Jenn[7:01 AM]: as for sacrificing life, if a wife really loves the husband, i'm sure she is willing too

He[7:02 AM]: lolz
He[7:02 AM]: you are comparing


*this is an actual conversation, only name have been changed to protect his privacy. He's a non-believer but I think he's learning fast.

Prayer for another dear friend

"Dear Lord, please keep Chin Yin safe from all harm. She's currently in Sri Lanka and the situation is very dangerous. Thank you Lord for keeping her safe so far and helped her to escape in the bomb blast. Lord, I pray that let not a single thing harm our dearest sister. Cover her with Your Blood and send forth your guardian angels to surround her and watch her in and out. Send her warnings should there be danger ahead and just keep her safe throughout her whole journey, even after she comes back to Malaysia. Thank you Lord, all these I pray in Your Mighty Name, Amen!"

Prayer for a dear friend

Last Saturday, me & him was the MC for our dearest friend, YSCM's wedding. I think i screwed up big time.. :s

Said all the wrong things.. :(

I was suppose to say Ski, but the stupid mouth said snow... ??!! what in the world am i thinking?!
sigh....
People say France, I say US... alamak.... Geography fail habis habis.. :(

Anyway,
I'm really glad that they finally got married, after all the hassles and trouble they went through when planning this marriage.

I can't remember how do i get to know them, but I only get to know them very well during the shakey times of their relationship, but with God's grace, they've made it through the hard time. Hearing their stories, I've learnt what great patience God had granted them. I really can't imagine myself in their situation because it breaks my heart everytime when she told me their hard time, but I'm sure that all these comes from God to test their faith. Their faith is strong.

This is a special prayer for the couple:

"Lord, this is a new chapter of life for them, I'm sure they will have many challenges ahead, Lord, I know that all these tough times are trial and test for them and all happen for a reason. Lord, I pray that You'll provide them plenty of grace and love, courage and faith to stand strong and spread the gospel within the family. it may not be easy, but I do pray that their hearts will be soften by this couple through Your love. Lord, be in the midst of their relationship so that they will never have to depend on their own strength to solve all the problems, but instead, they can turn to You for a listening companian. Let them know that You are always with them so that they won't have a single doubt at all. Be with them always, Lord. Amen."

Brain working overtime

Lately, have been having lots of dreams... no wonder not enough sleep... :(


This morning's dream is that I dreamt that I was with a little girl, outside snow.. hehe...

We were playing out and the little girl is making her first step on the snow... She looks soo cute and adorable with her tiny snow boots. I'm in a huge fluffy snow boots and I lost balance and landed my butt on the snow... butt wet wet... :(


then alarm rang and woke me again.. :(

Friday, February 1, 2008

Your grace amazes me

My faithful Father, enduring Friend
Your tender mercy’s like a river with no end
It overwhelms me, covers my sin
Each time I come into Your presence
I stand in wonder once again

Your grace still amazes me
Your love is still a mystery
Each day I fall on my knees
Your grace still amazes me
‘Cause Your grace still amazes me

Oh, patient Saviour, You make me whole
You are the Author and the Healer of my soul
What can I give You, Lord, what can I say
I know there’s no way to repay You
Only to offer You my praise