2009

ok... 2 more days before we all say bye bye to 2008...
Whatever that happens in 2008 will soon be history... it will just be a part of our journey in the world. All the UPs and DOWNs happened has already happen. What else can we do? Perhaps work on the DOWNs that it will be an UP in 2009. Cherish the UPs and maintain in throughout 2009.

Ok... i'm starting to talk crap... so anyway, 2009 will be an awesome year...

I bought a devotion book as a little Christmas present for myself. it's called "Ending your day right" by Joyce Meyer.

I have made a promise to myself and to God to read the book together with the Bible every evening, no matter what.

Tell me your plans for 2009. :)

public transport

Today, I waited for 40 minutes for a train to go back... only to be told at first, the train is delayed. At first it was late by 5 minutes, then 10 minutes, then 15 minutes... then finally they cancel the train. and guess when is the next train? 2 hours later!!!!!

@($&@*$^#*&

And the people that build the train shelter must have just been here during the summer or they must have forgotten about the door...

OI!!! It's bloody cold in the winter ok?!!! And your bloody train service is never on time!

Geram lor... it's not like the train fees are cheap.... and then I decided to take a bus to go back instead of waiting for 2 hours for the train that might not come... and guess what... the single bus fee is GBP4.45!!!!! Wah lau....... somemore the service not very good!!! the driver let us wait outside in the cold while he slowly take off his jacket, play around with his seat's setting, fiddle some switches and only finally open the door to let us in....

Chao Ang Mo!!! :(

Wishes

Merry Christmas!
Happy Boxing Day!
&
Happy New Year!!!

HELP!!!!

Help!!! I'm sooo bored here.. can die one ler...

I've been sitting here since 4pm not knowing what to do... and my shift finishes at 11pm...

arghh!!!.. Facebook also facebook sien already...

wah... really can die of boredom...

winter

i think I'm beginning to hate winter... I love snow.. provided it stays that way...

I hate it when it starts to melt.. and then melt half way turned to ice... it's sooo difficult to walk on icy pavement... it's already so uncomfortable with so many layers of clothings, & heavy coat... and there you are try to stay put on your feet and not landed on your butt..

yes... yes... i slipped and fall... bruised my butt... sorry.. no pic to show.. don't think anyone is interested to see a bruised butt.

Good thing it happen at night and not in broad day light on a busy street.. if not malu lor...

a frozen lake & 2 overweight homosapiens

situation like this...

Imagine this:

You have been with your bf for 10 years, married for 3 years and it's only recently that you found out he has been cheating behind your back for the past few years. After being confronted, he's still not willing to give up the bad habit. What would you do?

I'm sorry to hear all these happening to you girl. Please don't put the blame on yourself or poison your thoughts that you are no longer beautiful. It's never easy to face this kind situation. Be strong and let your family know. You'll be better with their support than to shut the whole world out. The best advise I can offer is, try talking to God... He'll makes you feel better... perhaps you don't believe, but just try ok?

What I did during my holiday

I saw a reindeer hiding behind a bush


I 'milked' a cow


I ate German sausage


We both have Krispy Kreme donuts


I drank Ale & hot chocolate with Baileys


I ate pancakes


I also have goulash!


He have 2 goulash!


I saw a dead pig...


... and he goes & order it


I saw Santa Clause stuck on the town hall roof!


Our first snow experience


His first snowman


My first cacat snowman, which later turns to a snow-woman


P/s: Ling, sorry we didn't go and visit you as we found out that the train fare to your place is very expensive!!! Perhaps we can plan for a holiday together to Europe next year?! :)

leaving...

It's soo hard to leave a job that you actually enjoy doing it...

Goodbye is so hard... especially when you just starts to get comfortable with everyone...

I can't help but feeling doubtful & scared of the new place that we'll be going soon...

my daily views

the views I normally see when I go to work or go back home:

View in the summer


View in the autumn. Notice the tree botak liaw.. hehe

my hair

my hair now looks just like this:



just like the tree branches in autumn: dry, split-end & brittle :(

choices

to say "I'm not doing well here, let's go back" or "I'm doing well here, I don't want to go back" is just too cruel...

to wait is a torture...

to choose is a torture too...

Money or God? Stability or dreams chasing?

To say "of course I'll choose this" is easy... but when it happens, will you still stay true to your word?

For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil 1Timothy 6:10

lies

I don't like it when my job requires me to lie... I'm terrible at lying and I don't like to.. I don't think anyone likes it...

I understand that for business to work & prosper, sometimes we need to use lots of colorful words to lure the customer to buy our product... but to the extend of lying and trying to hard-sell something that don't exist... I think it's not fair for them...

What happen to honesty? trust? Integrity?

fire alarm

No word can describe how shocked I was this morning when I was awoken by the fire alarm in the hotel at 4am in the morning.
Even right now, the thought of how the alarm sounds frighten me..

Being the only person in charge at night & looking after the wellfare of 22 guests is not easy at all.. Worst when you are not trained about the fire procedures.

But I did my best to solve it and used the best of my brain to think logical solution at 4am in the morning.

The owner is not happy at all.
Some guests are not happy and upset at how I handle the situation.
They complaint and most probably going to take it up to the Health & safety or Fire dept.
:(

I need something to calm me down... :(

But for all of you, let this be a lesson as well... If you are put in charge of something or travelling, find out about the fire procedure or any emergency procedures... don't be a blur cow like me..

Lesson learnt hard & well...

bonfire night

Tonight is Bonfire night and also happen to be my brother's birthday.

happy birthday bro... :) sent him a text.. but i think Malaysia time is already past midnite... oh well... belated birthday then..

Try to search him on facebook... turns out plenty of people with similar name... and knowing him.. i don't think he'll be posting his face on the website.. so nvm...

Anyway..

it feels like Chinese New year today with all the fireworks going on.. minus the lion dance and the 'tong tong chiang' song of course..

The bonfire night is actually to mark the failed Gunpowder plot in 1605. To find out more about the event, read this

I wonder how will next year CNY gonna be... It's gonna be the 1st year ever that I don't go back visit my parents... no ang pao.. :(
The first year to be in a foreign country...
White and cold CNY maybe, instead of red CNY.. hopefully can see snow by then..

we'll see...

Halloween

Happy Halloween my friends!!

Today, as I walked to work, I saw 2 little ghost & a witch... counting the chocolates & sweets that they have collected... haha...

so cute...

run away

in my earlier post, i wrote that i want to run away.. that's when I was still stuck in Penang.. thinking that after I run away from there to UK, I'll be better, I'll be ok... but now... seems that the same thought come back and haunt me again...

What is wrong?

double siau

I think we are nuts... me & dom...
Fly all the way here to UK, rent a car to Liverpool, just to go to a Chinese supermarket to find some familiar food stuff that is 'Made in Malaysia' & some chinese raw material that we always have in Malaysia.

You say lar... siau or not? He's already a 'Siau' ... now double siau...

People back in Malaysia... treasure the damn Nasi Kandar, laksa & the chinese 'zhu cha' ok...

For those that is planning to come to UK for long term, please pre-ship all the herbs & spices to UK. You can earn big buck here or you can simply save lots of money by not buying from the chinese supermarket here...

Mousy, if you plan to come to UK or know anyone going to UK, can u ship 10KG of the market fish ball for me ar? I've been dying to eat those fish ball... :(

maybe make tat 100kg...

period.

have anyone told you guys how much i hate period?

I HATE PERIOD!!!!!!

I'm having my period soon.... mood swing faster than the seesaw in the playground... back hurts like want to patah already... bloody hell... pimple under my chin... goodness... of all the place.. now makes my double chin even more obvious... ("*£^"*&$** tummy bloated like a big fat balloon...
I HATE PERIOD!!!!!

I miss my massages in Penang... :( here all the services are so expensive.. :(

Bedazzled

It's probably the 4th time I watched Bedazzled... I know I know.. it's such an old movie.. but it's a nice one and it also present a good message to everyone as well..



Last time I always have alot of wishes... Well, I still do have now... but not as siau as last time lar..

I always wished to be rich, rich to the extend that I don't have to work, go shopping everyday in those upmarket shops, buying designer clothings & shoes. I also wish to be prettier, to have a nice body, nicer butt, nicer facial features, nicer hair, handsome & rich boyfriend, and soo many more... trust me.. I can go on and on on my wish list...

But then again, I will also question myself.. If I have all those, will I be a happier person? Will I have the friends that I have now?

Anyway, in the movie, the devil looks so delicious and God is just someone in prison.. truth is... that's reality... the devil will always tempt us to sin against God by making things that are wrong looks right & delicious... and living God's way is... tough.. but in the end.. i think that's the only way to live life to the fullest...

another lazy day..

it's raining again.... looks like gloomsville outside.... it makes me sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo lazy......



wanted to do laundry... lazy
wanted to hoover the carpet... lazy
wanted to clean my bathroom... lazy
wanted to eat... also lazy

God... I'm so lazy....

Good thing I don't have to work today....haha... so lazy...

On my double bed... yawning away...

It's 12 noon... belum berus gigi lagi... hahaha...

Tat's how lazy I am

Blackberries crumble

After we got the berries.. we don't know what to do with it.. so I told my landlady that she can have it.. As a result, she made us Blackberry crumble! And it's super delicious!!!! :)
Best of all... I've got the recipe on how to make it... muahahahaha!!!!

Sorry, the pic a bit ugly.. because it's taken when we almost finished it.. :s


Crumble served with custard


Left the last bit

under 21

Yesterday, we went blueberries picking by the lakes.... There's plenty of those & it's quite tricky too...

Berries have thorny stems & there's another plant that always grow next to the berries that can sting you when u touch the tips of the leaves... I got sting 2 or 3 times, cut by the thorn 2 times... :(

Here's some pics of us doing berries picking.


Lake Windermere


Do I look under 21? :p


Ah Siau picking berries


The view as we go along picking berries


He's going to be my new coat.. muahaha


The last part was me ouching away as I got sting by the plant.. :(



So... after berries picking, we decided to pop in to Tesco to get a bottle of white wine and buy fish & chips for dinner.

We pick up a bottle of wine and I head to the cashier to pay... then the lady ask for my ID... I said I have none.. then she say she can't let me buy it because I look under 21... ahhahahhahaha
She just made my day! ehehhe :p
So I have to get him to pay... but even she guess that he's only 23... hahaaah...

We Asians always look younger than our age, whereas the Ang Mo looks older than their age...

under 21... can u believe that?! haha...

Negaraku

suddenly I start to whistle Negaraku tune... hahahaha... dunno y.... maybe to remind myself that I'm a Malaysian afterall... :)

Wanted to write about work stuff.... but just feeling very lazy to complain about it... so... nevermind...

I think everywhere is the same. There's always staff attitude problem, some stupid work policy that we can never understand why, work dissatisfaction, and bla bla bla....(yawn..) It's just up to us on how to handle it...
It's Sunday... so... whatever lar....

memories

suddenly feels like going to theme park and go through all the rides again... scream my lungs out..

so much fun when we were in Genting...
Mousy... ah... mousy.... I miss u lor....


The elephant ride... hehe


Before the dragon flies...


Before the ship starts to rock us away!


Mousy: Oh shit!
Me: Oh Shit
Dom: Oh Shittt!!!!

Whatever lah..

If I didn't leave my hometown, I would probably be in the same picture with her... proud parents, square hat on the head, and a paper that says MBA.

No.. instead, i choose to explore the world.... I choose to explore myself.

Regrets? Well... yeah... It's a lie if I say no... call it peer pressure, call it parents pressure... yes, I do feel the pressure to drop everything and go back to study again But then again, I keep on reminding myself of my dream. Dream that I'm not sure when it will be fulfilled. Oh well... God will decide on that...

Anyway... enuf of all the emo shit... Some good things happening in my hometown and my 2nd home in PG and i want to post my wishes here to them! :)

A big congrats to Ah Min & Mr Tham on their graduation.
Congrats to Joy & Edwin for the birth of their little baby boy.
Congrats to Penny & Ken on their wedding.

questions & tonnes of questions..

Have you ever suddenly stop everything that you are doing and think to yourself... what am i doing here? Why am i doing this?
I'm having this moment now... I wonder about my purpose here in UK. I don't know what am i doing here. I'm not sure what's gonna happen next.

Everyday, I walked to work. That 15 minutes of walks everyday made me think alot. I ponder about my future here. After my visa expires, what am i going to do next. Can I stay here longer? if not, do i go back to my hometown? Will there be jobs for me? If I don't, where should I go? maybe the next country to explore is US... maybe...

I thought about marriage. With our situation like this, will we ever be stable enough to get married? Or we will just continue to travel and forget about the marriage thing. Afterall, it's not cheap getting married nowadays.

Do any of you feel like this too sometimes? Or I'm just the only lunatic here with questions swimming crazily in my tiny brain.

If one day, God appears and He allow you to have a peek about your future life... will you do it or just let it happen naturally?

How to make me happy

I forgot that there's something else that can make me happy....

SHOPPING!!! :)

Hehehe...

I recently bought a pair of boots and a pair of skinny jeans. Now.. I'm searching for a jacket...

wahahahaha....

I'm going nuts.... anyway... show u my new boots & jeans hehehe

The boots are bargain from Clarks at only 20GBP & the skinny jean is from Dorothy Perkins at 15GBP



I'll shoot u if you say my legs are big!

SOoo happy....

Next, I should REALLY get some long sleeve shirts... winter is coming.... I don't want to die frozen in my bed... :s

Geram..geram..

Wah... asking these girls to come to work on Friday evening is like asking them to commit suicide!!!! Super susah....

And yet, everyday complain money not enuf, pay not good.... of course lar... you don't work extra hour, where got extra money... duh...

Geram lor...

rambling

I'm very tempted to go out and see the night life of the Lake District...

but I fear for my safety as there's been a lot of stabbing cases going around and it normally involve teenagers stabbing their friends... Dunno what is wrong with these people... Must be high on drugs or alcohol. A moment of highness that might cause some innocent life lost.. Is it worth it? I doubt...

Therefore I choose to stay at home. Gone online a thousand of times, not knowing what to do, the same music has been playing in the background a thousand of times too... I think it's time to get more new songs.

Dad has been pestering me to continue my degree, especially after attending my bro's convo recently... I'm tempted but that means it may cost alot if i choose to study here. I don't trust our local Uni... I just don't like how they work...discrimination...

Thinking of taking an online study... do I have such discipline to organise my time? Well.. maybe... If I continue to live alone.

Something has to be done soon... before i die of boredom

Should i take part time study? Should I take another job?

Maybe I should do both. I can fulfill my dad's wish, earn extra cash to cover for the study cost and keep boredom away.

English celebration

Tonight, I join Rob & Becky (My landlord) for their celebration of a new born baby. It's a wonderful and informal celebration.

We drank a 20 year old champagne before we have our meal. Rob's mom make Lasagna and it's absolutely delicious..

English celebration is different from what we normally have in Chinese culture. Chinese culture, red eggs, Ka cha ma (for those in Kuching) and the poor mom in confinement for 1 month, cannot shower.. wah lao... kesian lor..

Ang mo ler... after give birth.. like nothing happen, continue to drink champagne, eat all the normal food.. no such thing as confinement, they are allowed.... encourage actually to shower to be clean..

It's nice to stay with an english couple... It's a great experience to learn about their culture :)




That's the bear that i bought for their baby and that's their new-born baby, Alex :)

rain.. rain..go away...

Ok.. enough of talking about gloomy stuff.. the weather here doesn't really turns better... goodness... the rain should really get a life and go to Malaysia...:p
let's talk about something else... hmm... let's talk about my hair... =D

My hair is getting a bit out of control... long and it gets tangled... like a bush.. on second thought. i think i look more like a lion now...

anyway.. any tips to tame it or at least make it abit tidy? any product or cream or hair stuff that you guys use tat is really good to cure that problem?

I tried baby oil.. sometimes it gets abit too oily for me... i like the shine though...

I thought of cutting of the hair... but bloody hell.. it's freaking expensive to get a hair cut! So have to tahan a bit before cutting it away..



help...

i don't want to become...

lalala

yahoo... wireless at home is finally set up! :)

Now can blog more often.. if not... very susah to blog from work... hehehe

updates

Nope, he didn't get the job in Intel... In a way, he's relieved about that because he's not too keen on going back to the same job.. but he's feeling down lately...

How to console a man who is jobless & lost?
:(

help..

alone

I hate being alone...

being alone has killed my appetite... I've lost weight. I used to wear size 10 now it shrunk to size 8.
being alone has made me prefer to come to work then staying at home and don't know what to do
being alone means having to buy things alone and carry them all the way back home alone by foot
being alone means going out alone and it's meaningless to me...
I don't want to be alone

A prayer..

Dear Lord,

Tomorrow is his interview with Intel in Swindon. If this is Your will for him to be in that company again, then let it be done and close all other doors that he's hoping for. If it's not, show him which way to go.

You have revealed this to him today: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11"

We will wait faithfully for Your plan Lord.

Amen

who's the boss?

I can't never understand why some people are sooo soo bossy... i mean.. if you are the boss.. then fine, you are allowed to boss your employees... but now i'm talking about those working for other people and they are just a housekeeping staff...

2 of the girls that work in the hotel are like that. & they are sisters... (no wonder..)

anyway, what happen is, I'm suppose to be supervising them on their work but they turn around and said that they have work here longer and i have no rights to tell them what to do and instruct me to do some of their work...

So I had a word with my boss, just to clarify on this and she said that they are suppose to listen to my instruction and she said that most probably I'm new there so they took the opportunity to boss me around.... sorrylar... wrong person to bully...

So, she managed to talk to one of them, just to let them know who is in charge and what's their duty are. The manager speaks nicely to her, but that girl with a high and unpleasent tone told us that we are not her boss and she don't have the mood to talk to us and that we have just spoilt her day.... WTH???!!!!!! and she said tat me & my manager pakat together to bully her... hahaha... at that moment... when she said it... it was so funny that i laugh out loud...

Oh well.. good news is.. she's leaving us in 2 weeks time... what a relief... imagine have to handle her everyday... wah lau... it's either she kills me first or I'll just hang myself...

Glory to God for giving me strength to handle such people.

All the best to her future boss...

Olympic fever

left, right, everyone is talking about the games.

& guess what... my little tv in my room shows more "ants print" than i can see half naked men in their tiny swimming trunk jumping into the swimming pool...

I miss those men..
erm... i mean those games...

exchange

Last night was a good night. Chatted with Sun & himself makes me feel better after being bullied...

Went home to cook dinner.. so used to cook dinner with him, i accidentally cooked dinner for 2 person... opps... looks like that will be my dinner tonight again..

The landlord & his wife made Mango & Laici Crumble and gave me some... it's delicious... maybe simply because it's home prepared dessert. We managed to talk much longer this time as I don't have to rush off to work. We exchange photos and talked about food. The wonder of food.. the topic of all nation... hahaha... I told them about Sarawak Laksa & Penang Char Kuey Tiaw... wah lau... makes me lau chui nua nia...

As she's pregnant, we also talk about our wedding ceremony & maternity leave... I ask them, how long is her maternity leave. She said 9 months... 9 FREAKING MONTHS!!!!!! 9 MONTHS!!! that's enough time for me to make another baby!!! Malaysia one so pathetic... 2 months nia...

Now you know where's the best place to give birth.... 9 months... wow....

gloom...

The weather outside is gloomy.... it's raining again...

I went to a church on Sunday morning. Don't know what to expect, don't know who I will meet... at the last minute, i thought of not going because the wind is strong and rain is getting heavier.. in the end, i drag my lazy bum off the bed and went to church.

It's a small community church with only about 10 people there. They welcomed me and told me that it's an informal church. I smiled. They started on time with a prayer. During the prayer, i closed my eyes, not listening to what he's praying about, but i can feel my eyes getting moist. Odd..
what's going on? why am i crying? Is that Holy Spirit? Is it stress? Am i that tired? Am i sad? Do i miss someone that much? or Is it just the gloomy weather? I don't know... but i felt better afterward.

maybe it's homesick... maybe...

Argghh!!!!

Arrgghhhh!!!!!!!!!

Computer kena virus again!!!!!

Geramnya!!!!!!!!!!!!

where I stay

I've shown you where i work, now it's only fair that I show you where I have been staying in the Lakes.

Pictures time! :)


this is the living room of the place that I'm staying.


This is the dining room


The kitchen


The staircase that leads to my room


My room! :)


My room from another angle



The view from my room

Nice right? I love this place.As you can see in the picture, summer time already using the thick comforter, can you imagine what's it like to be in the winter? Gosh.. i probably have to mummified myself...